Oh..owh.....here it comes.....

It finally hit me....the idle bug....heheheh...i've been out of job for almost 4 months now..(not really out of job...more like a year long vacation)...been quite a milestone for me though...gave birth to my beautiful son, Hassan Naufal, confinement for 2 months, hop on the next flight to Edinburgh with my kids and mom, dad comes along and join us, did some touring around here, hang out with my family, waiting for my sisz Nawal to come and visit us.....and.......now comes the silent part....i do nothing....hehehehe....except being a full time housewife...a nanny, kitchen officer, floor engineer, bed warmer, baby doctor, blogger, financial officer, lover and ebay bidder....hahahah...its a dirty job, but somebody got to do it...did i say i missed my job?? maybe....hahaha...i actually dreamed about doing my office work..hahahaha..how pathetic was that?..well...i still got eleven months to go before i return to the usual office life...bet i'm gonna be transferred to another office by the time i got back...its about time for a change  anyway....now back to my idle bug issues....i also think that i'm missing Malaysia, missing my siblings and their antics, friends back home, friends at office and even the foods over there ( i didnt say i missed my job, rite??)....huh...like my sisz once said; an idle mind is a devil's playground.....most of the time i got things to do around the house or around town...since its noe Malaysia, and its winter time...so the daytime are shorter and theres isnt much of fun (define fun = ade laaaa) stuff to do...but sumtimes i do feel like i'm not really doing anything now...what am i suppose to do anyway??..hehehehe....takkan la nak p sightseeing hari2 ?? bankrap la beb....hehehe....well, no decision yet about what i'm really doing here, so, i'll just keep it all moving on a daily basis..hahaha...bukannya tak tahu nak buat ape, originally i applied for a one year leave with the excuse to accompany my husband and take care of my kids (the whole family bonding stuff, my boss once gave me that idea) ....hehehe...and that is exactly what i do rite now...am i not fit to be a fulltime mom? why am i too worried bout this?...i dont know yet...still trying to...is it that difficult to lepak all the time, watch my kids grow and nurture them with love, not to think bout office stuff, eat and sleep and jalan2 when you want and go dating macam muda2 dulu with dearest hubby ...does it sound difficult to do ??.......i'll update more later when i finally figure it out..maybe its the best opportunity given by Allah SWT for me to reflect on my life and what i've been doing all this while...a chance to look back, learn and move forward with life...at least that is what i could come up with at this moment...cheers all !! ...